Aside from competitions...I see that a lot of people tend to do what I call, 'group activity' art. Get together and make some art. They do it for fun. Seems like that's some pretty free-spirit, hippy bullshit to me. In fact, I have tried to get this going with some of my other artistic friends before, cuz who knows? Maybe it would have been fun had it worked out for us. In all honesty though, it would only last for about 10 minutes before our focus turns to anything other than art and we just end up screwing around and getting drunk or something.
I tried. I wanted to be involved with an art community and so much of it now, seems so fake and corny to me. A lot of the work I admire... is weird, dark, and mysterious. A lot of these group art shows or art communities who meet on a regular basis, are very happy-go-lucky and that's just not me. I mean I think its important to compete against your peers or see what everyone else is doing, but I don't really want to hang out with you? If that makes sense. I don't think I am a lime light type of person. When I do something that is recognized by someone, I get embarrassed or anxious, especially if its face to face. I wish I could sell paintings from behind the curtain in Wizard of Oz for the rest of my life. Never have to talk to someone in person. Never have to see someone in person, and just do what I do from my art cave and have it magically float out into the world.
Lucky for me, technology is doing just this. I will continue to do what I do, the best way I know how, being the recluse that I am, until I find a better way (for me) to do it. Perhaps I never will, and I am ok with that.
